Tuesday, September 20, 2005:
I'M DOOMED. aiyah. no matter how positive i am ah, no matter which angle i look at it ah, i'm still going to fail my piano exam la. :\ die already..
BUT. i'm
thankful.
1._ for everybody.
my mommy and daddy for being so encouraging and supportive, who prayed for me, and reminded me that god is there beside me watching over me during the exam.
claire, minty and abi, beat, who went through every single bit of the piano exam with me, down the the last detail, and taught me new things that i never heard before, and endure my endless questions, especially when i asked it for like the millionth time. to
leemey, drew, laura - who cheered me up when i was feeling sad about the whole exam, and especially your hug mey! thanks everyone. really. i guess i just didnt do as well as i wanted to. sigh.
2._ for god. for being there when i was in that tiny suffocating room. and for giving the examiner kindness, who gave me all the easy stuff, like C major 3 times for scales (c major!!!!), perfect cadences for aural (!!!) , and D major for sight reading (my best key), AND guess what. i couldnt play either, i like, screwed it up so much. (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) just kill me la. waaaa. that was totally totally. BAD. i feel so utterly disgraced.. shameful. i cant believe it. but thank you god anyway. without you, i think it would be alot worse. maybe its just god's plan or something. bleah. (excuses la)
oh well. got back like e math and geog today. was BAD. failed geog. ): as usual. no suprise la. (but i could have gotten at least a c6. haiix) and i got a 2 for e math. BLOODY
TWO ONLY! walao. i really really wanted an A1. thats really bad. but i'm thankful that i dint get worse. at least its still a distinction. sighh. not looking forward to tmr. sshist and english and chem. not the best combi.
ahwell. POSITIVE-NESS kristi! satan is just there causing you grief and you know it. dont fall in his trap. be happy for god. you go girl.
wish me luck. (: -crosses fingers-
a shout of praise.
9:25 PM
